Today I am full of self-doubt and I began the day by beating myself up because I don't believe I performed well in my new job. I don't need to dwell on this today (I can be more objective in a few days) so I'm using the white board beside my desk. There are six questions that I believe I should answer before I can determine how well I performed my duties.
These are the questions I've written on the board:
1. What was my duty?
2. How (in what method) did I perform it?
3. What could I have done differently?
4. What will I do in the future?
5. Does what I feel reflect reality?
6. Have I received any feedback?
And I leave these questions alone. I know that I'll be processing these as I go about the next day or so. They are on the board so I will see them until I have found answers and recorded those answers on the board. Just the act of writing these questions has lightened my mood a bit.
I got up (I am in an upright position, not in bed, not on the couch).
I got out (well, I will later when I run a scheduled errand).
I got on with it (I ate breakfast, took meds, have been puttering around doing small jobs, and am blogging).
Tabling my worry is a positive step in my self-care. I will do the best I can today at other things trusting that I will be able to address these questions later, learn from my answers, and acknowledge that I did beneficial things, too.
Positive thing to do today: Google bipolar 2 blogs and review them for helpful suggestions.
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